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A Bundle of Paradoxes

I have come to think of my whole life as a paradox, more of me that makes it one rather than my life. And as you read this post you will understand why.

The first 24 years of my life, I was tired of everyone telling me I was dark.
>> I know it, can you please not mention it every time we meet?

And the later years, I have been told I am fair.
>> Ok. 

Some say I am quite rude while others say I am one of the politest creatures.
>> Well, I am rude to rude people, polite to everybody else :)

Some just hate my guts and some hate the whole package (me). And others love me for the very same things.
>> Those who hate me, I really don’t care. Those who love me, I love you too :)

The first few years of my life everyone thought me older than my age. “Which college?” (when I was in school), “Not married? Really?” (when I was in college) and so on.
>> Hmmph!

And now – “Married? Really?”, “You are not in college? Working?”, “Oh! you are 27! Thought you were much younger!”
>> Gee, thanks so much! :D

Friends in college asked me – “You must have a boyfriend.. come on, no point hiding!”. As well as, “Ha… you and boyfriend! What a joke!”
>> I had no boyfriend and I wasn’t even looking for one. I loved my single life as much as my courtship and marital life now.

With my female friends it was – “” and also “What? You are not liking anyone here? Not even that guy there?”
>> Girl talk about crushes. Crush is like window shopping, you just admire from afar. You neither touch it nor want to have it. :P

And from my male friends – “Hey dude, come on, don’t be a girl!”, “Wow! You blushed!”, “Crush? You? On a guy? ROFL”
>> No comments

I have been told, “You have changed so much!” and “You haven’t changed one bit!”
>> :D

If you asked my friends about the mean streak in me, some would say I could beat the sh*t outta anyone while some others would say I couldn’t even hurt a fly.
>> Depends on the situation ;)

Some of my friends will find it hard to believe that I could cry “Nammi? And cry? Never! She laughs all the time and I can’t imagine her crying!” and others will say, “Ah, she cries at the drop of a hat and will not stop until she has filled a bucket at least.”
>> Yes I laugh a lot. And I cry a lot too – while watching movies, while reading books, when I see violence, when I am angry, when I am sad, when I am happy, …….

Some will say I am one of the most talkative persons they have met and others will say I’m the most silent.
>> Depends again on whom I am talking with, what the topic is and what mood I am in :P

Some will say I am one of the most genuine creatures they have come across, others will say I am over-acting.
>> Duh! Unless otherwise specified, I am genuine. :D I’m happy when I am happy, sad when I am sad, I laugh when I want to, cry when I feel like and I am not ashamed to accept it. I don’t think much of anyone else when I am crying/laughing. OTOH I love to imitate others and have been told that I am good at it :D

Some will say I am straightforward and truthful to the extent of being insensitive while others will say no one has understood their pain/problem better than I have.
>> I am, by nature, a sensitive creature. OTOH I don’t shun from calling a sword a sword. And if *that* is being insensitive, so be it.

“Too much attitude” and “So down to earth” have both been used while describing me.
>> Attitude I do have the right amounts and when challenged, it comes out in full force. But otherwise I am a very down-to-earth person.

And… I have been called stupid and smart, serious and humorous, traditional and modern, crazy and calm, disorganized and organized, hardworking and lazy, so on and so forth.

Footprints in the sand (Source: Google / Greengraf Photography)

Sometimes I wonder if I suffer from split personality disorder. ;) Or is this what is called the “constant change”? Because, although some of the things were told to me at different points in time, most of them were not. Some of the things about myself I did not know until others told me and it has been a tremendous help to identify my strengths and weaknesses (and work on them for the better). That said, I also don’t believe in changing myself for the sake of others. I am like this, I like me the way I am, I have my shortcomings which I’ll eventually get the better of, and I’ll continue to ignore all that negative comments and continue to keep up my positive spirit. What is the purpose of this post, you ask? Nothing actually. Like the saying goes – Those who love me don’t need it, those who don’t love me won’t believe it.

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